Happy holidays to all of my readers, and I hope that you have a fun day with family and friends. The cupcakes immediately below were my creation from three Christmases ago when I last went to America in the beginning of December. I helped my mother bake and decorate these. I wish I could have been at home this year for Thanksgiving and Christmas, but it's been a busy year, and from the 30th of November, everything has suddenly and unexpectedly taken a different turn, despite my forward planning. So, everything has been up in the air for me. Christmas could not be any further from my mind right now.
I am not going to lie. The last few Christmases have not been the best for me. Last year, I was also concerned about what was going to happen as my contract was up for renewal, and I'd worked so hard over the past couple of years that I was physically and mentally exhausted, but I had some down-time too, and I got ill as soon as my body started to relax. The year before was not special, and I could not relax. The year before that was also uncertainty with working at a company that was wrong for me and thinking about that over the holidays.
So, despite my best efforts, I've really been struggling with Christmas over the past few years. Christmas Day has never been my favourite holiday, but I love Thanksgiving and the run-up to Christmas. I love seeing the lights and the decorations, and I like the older Christmas music and the films. I like the seasonal food and drink as well. I love the Christmas tree and decorating it, wrapping gifts with Christmas music playing, and memories.
In the new year, I will be taking some time off my blog to focus on other areas in my life as things have taken a sudden and unexpected turn at short notice. However, I will return and post more as soon as I start to feel settled again. This is really not how I expected to be spending this Christmas, with moving and already feeling unsettled.
I hope that next year brings better times as I would love to have an easier time and be able to appreciate more without the worry. It would be good to arrange some time to go see my friends and family as well.
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